James Clavell - Gai-Jin Page 13

  Delphi? Her father's service, though only Indian Army."

  He had promised that on his return he would choose. Now perhaps he would not have to settle for second or third or fourth best. "Miss

  Angelique raised the alarm in the Settlement then insisted on coming here last night--Mr.

  Struan had asked her to see him urgently-- seems he's not too good, pretty bad wound in fact, so I brought her. She's quite a lady."

  "Yes." A curious silence took them, each knowing the other's thoughts. Phillip Tyrer broke it. "Why should an assassin come here?"

  The other two heard the nervousness. "More devilment, I suppose," Pallidar said.

  "Nothing to worry about, we caught the bugger. Have you seen Mr. Struan this morning?"

  "I peeked in but he was asleep, hope he's going to be all right. The op was not so good and..."

  Tyrer stopped, hearing an altercation outside.

  Pallidar went to the window followed by the others.

  Sergeant Towery was shouting at a half-naked

  Japanese from the far side of the garden, beckoning him. "Hey you, come 'ere!"

  The man, apparently a gardener, was well built and young and twenty yards away. He wore only a loincloth and was carrying a bundle of sticks and branches over one shoulder, some half wrapped in a dirty black cloth, while he awkwardly scavenged for others. For a moment he stood erect, then began bobbing up and down, bowing abjectly towards the Sergeant.

  "My God, these buggers have no sense of shame," Pallidar said distastefully. "Even the

  Chinese don't dress like that--nor Indians.

  You can see his privates."

  "I'm told they dress like that even in winter, some of them," Marlowe said, "they don't seem to feel the cold."

  Again Towery shouted and beckoned. The man kept on bowing, nodding vigorously, but instead of going towards him, seemingly he misinterpreted him and obediently turned away, still half-bowing, and scuttled away, heading for the corner of the building. As he passed their window he gazed at them for an instant, then once more bent double in a groveling obeisance and hurried towards the servants' quarters, almost hidden by foliage, and was gone.

  "Curious," Marlowe said.

  "What?"

  "Oh just that all that bowing and scraping seemed put on." Marlowe turned and saw Tyrer's chalky face. "Christ Almighty, what's up?"

  "I, I, that man, I think he, I'm not sure but I think he was one of them, one of the murderers at the Tokaid@o, the one Struan shot. Did you see his shoulder, wasn't it bandaged?"

  Pallidar was the first to react. He jumped out of the window, closely followed by Marlowe who had grabbed his sword. Together they hurtled for the trees. But they did not find him though they searched everywhere.

  Now it was high noon. Again the soft knock on her bedroom door, again "Mademoiselle?

  Mademoiselle?" Babcott called out from the corridor, his voice soft, not wanting to awaken her unnecessarily but she did not reply. She remained standing rock still in the center of the room and stared at the bolted door, hardly breathing, her robe tight around her, her face stark. The trembling began again.

  "Mademoiselle?"

  She waited. After a moment his footsteps died away and she exhaled, desperately trying to stop shaking, then resumed pacing to the shuttered windows and back to the bed and back to the window once more, pacing as she had been pacing for hours.

  I've got to decide, she thought in misery.

  When she awoke a second time, not remembering the first awakening, her mind was clear and she lay in the crumpled bed linen without moving, glad to be awake, rested, hungry, and thirsty for the first, glorious cup of coffee of the day served with some crusty fresh French bread that her Legation's chef made in Yokohama. But I'm not in

  Yokohama, I'm in Kanagawa, and today it will be just a cup of revolting English tea with milk.

  Malcolm! Poor Malcolm, I do so hope he's better. We'll return to Yokohama today, I'll board the next steamer for Hong Kong, thence to Paris... but oh what dreams I had, what dreams!

  The fantasies of the night were still vivid and mixed up with other pictures of the Tokaid@o and

  Canterbury's mutilation and Malcolm acting so strangely presuming that they would marry. The imagined smell of the surgery rose in her nostrils but she fought it away, yawned, and reached for her little timepiece which she had left on the bedside table.

  With the slight movement came a small pain in her loins. For a moment she wondered if it presaged an early period for she was not completely regular but dismissed the thought as impossible.

  The timepiece read 10:20. It was inset with lapis lazuli and had been her father's gift on her eighteenth birthday, July 8th, a little over two months ago in Hong Kong. So much has happened since then, she thought. I'll be so happy to be back in Paris, in civilization, never to return, never never nev--

  Abruptly she realized that she was almost naked under the sheet. To her astonishment she found that her nightdress only clung to her arms and shoulders and was totally split down the front and scrambled up behind her. She lifted the two sides in disbelief. Wanting to see better, she slid out of bed to go to the window but again the slight soreness.

  Now in the day's light she noticed the telltale smear of blood on the sheet and found a trace between her legs.

  "How can my period..."

  She began counting days and recounting them but the addition made no sense. Her last period had stopped two weeks ago. Then she noticed that she was slightly moist and could not understand why--then her heart twisted and she almost fainted as her brain shouted that the dreams had not been dreams but real and that she had been violated while asleep.

  "That's not possible! You must be mad--that's not possible," she had gasped, fighting for air, fighting for space. "Oh God, let this be a dream, part of those dreams." She groped for the bed, heart pounding. "You're awake, this isn't a dream, you're awake!"

  She examined herself again, frantically, and then again but this time with more care. She had enough knowledge to know that there was no mistake about the moisture, or that her hymen was split. It was true. She had been raped.

  The room began to spin. Oh God I'm ruined, life ruined, future ruined for no decent man, eligible man will marry me now that

  I'm soiled, marriage a girl's only way to better herself, have a happy future, any future, no other way...

  When her senses settled and she could see and think, she found herself lying across the bed. Shakily she tried to reconstruct the night. I remember bolting the door.

  She peered at it. The bar was still in place.

  I remember Malcolm and the foulness of his room and running away from him, Phillip Tyrer sleeping peacefully, Dr. Babcott giving me the drink and go upstair--

  The drink! Oh God, I was drugged! If

  Babcott can operate with these drugs, of course it could happen, of course I would be helpless but that doesn't help me now! It happened! Say I get a child!

  Again panic overwhelmed her. Tears gushed down her cheeks and she almost cried out. "Stop it!" she muttered, making a supreme effort for control. "Stop it! Don't make a sound, don't! You're alone, no one else can help, just you, you've got to think. What are you going to do?

  Think!" She took deep breaths, her heart hurting, and tried to slam her jumbled mind into order. Who was the man?

  The bar's still in place so no one could have come through the door. Wait a minute, I remember vaguely... or was it part of the dream before the...

  I seem to remember opening the door to, to Babcott and, and the naval officer Marlowe... then barring it again. Yes, that's right! At least,

  I think that's right. Didn't he speak French

  ... yes he did, but badly, then they went away and I barred the door, I'm sure I did. But why did they knock on the door in the night?

  She searched and re-searched her mind but could not find an answer, not truly sure this had happened, the night pictures slipping away.

  Som
e of them.

  Concentrate!

  If not through the door he came through the window.

  She squirmed around and saw that the shutter bar was on the floor, below the window, not in its slots.

  So whoever it was got in through the window! Who?

  Marlowe, that Pallidar or even the good

  Doctor, I know they all want me. Who knew I was drugged? Babcott. He could have told the others but surely none of them would dare to be so evil, would dare risk the consequences of climbing up from the garden forof course I shall shout from the rooftops...

  Her whole being screamed a warning: Be careful. Your future depends on being careful and wise. Be careful.

  Are you sure that this really happened in the night?

  What about the dreams? Perhaps... I won't think about them now but only a doctor would know for certain and that would have to be Babcott. Wait, you could, you could have ruptured that tiny piece of skin in your sleep, twisting in the nightmare--it was a nightmare, wasn't it? That has happened to some girls. Yes, but they'd still be virgin and that doesn't explain the moisture.

  Remember Jeanette in the convent, poor silly Jeanette who fell in love with one of the tradesmen, and allowed him, and excitedly told us all about it later, all the details. She didn't become pregnant but she was found out and the next day she was gone forever and later we learned she'd been married off to a village butcher, the only man who would take her.

  I didn't allow anything but that won't help me, a doctor would know for certain but that won't help me, and the idea of Babcott or any doctor being so intimate fills me with horror and then Babcott would share the secret. How could

  I trust him with such a secret? If it became known... I have to keep it secret! But how, how can you, and what then?

  I'll answer that later. First decide who the devil was. No, first clean yourself of this evil and then you will think better. You've got to think clearly.

  With distaste she shook off the nightdress and threw it aside, then washed carefully and deeply, trying to remember all the contraceptive knowledge she possessed, what

  Jeanette had done successfully. Then she put on her robe and combed her hair. Using tooth powder, she cleaned her teeth. Only then did she look in her mirror. Very carefully she examined her face. It was without blemish. She loosed her robe. So were her limbs and breasts-- nipples a little red. Again she looked deep into her mirror.

  "No change, nothing. And everything."

  Then she noticed that the little gold cross she had worn forever, sleeping and waking, was gone. She searched the bed carefully, then underneath and all around. It was not buried in the bedclothes or under the pillows or caught in the curtains.

  Last chance--hiding in the lace of the coverlet.

  She picked it off the floor and went through it.

  Nothing.

  Then she saw the three Japanese characters, crudely drawn on its whiteness, in blood.

  Sunlight sparked off the gold cross. Ori was holding it in his fist by the thin chain, mesmerized.

  "Why did you take it?" Hiraga asked.

  "I don't know."

  "Not killing the woman was a mistake. Shorin was right. It was a mistake."

  "Karma."

  They were safe in the Inn of the Midnight

  Blossoms and Ori had bathed and shaved and he looked back at Hiraga with level eyes and thought, You're not my master--I will tell you only what pleases me, nothing more.

  He had told him about Shorin's death and climbing into the room, that she had slept soundly and had not awakened but no more, only that he had hidden there safely, then had taken off his ninja clothes knowing he would be intercepted and had camouflaged his swords with them, shinned down into the garden with just enough time to gather some fallen branches, to pretend to be a gardener before he was spotted and how, even after recognizing the man from the road, had managed to escape. But nothing more about her.

  How can I express in mortal words and tell anyone that because of her I became one with the gods, that when I had spread her wide and saw her I was drunk with craving, that when I entered her, I entered her as a lover and not a rapist, I don't know why but I did, slowly, carefully, and her arms went around me and she shuddered and held on though she never truly awoke and she was so tight and

  I held back and back and then poured forth in a way inconceivable.

  I never believed it could be so marvelous, so sensual, so satisfying, so final. The others were nothing compared to her. She made me reach the stars but that is not why I left her alive. I thought about killing her very much. Then myself, there in the room.

  But that would have been only selfish, to die at the crest of happiness, so content.

  Oh how I wished to die. But my death belongs to sonno-joi. Only that. Not to me.

  "Not killing her was a mistake," Hiraga said again, interrupting Ori's thought pattern.

  "Shorin was right, killing her would have achieved our plan, better than anything."

  "Yes."

  "Then why?"

  I left her alive for the gods, if there are gods, he could have said but did not. They possessed me and made me do what I did and I thank them. Now I am complete. I know life, all that remains to know is death. I was her first and she will remember me forever even though she slept. When she wakes and sees my writing in my own blood, not hers, she will know. I want her to live forever. I will die soon. Karma.

  Ori put the cross into a secret sleeve pocket of his kimono and drank more of the refreshing green tea, feeling utterly fulfilled and so alive. "You said you had a raid?"

  "Yes. We are going to burn the British

  Legation in Yedo."

  "Good. Let it be soon."

  "It is. Sonno-joi!"

  At Yokohama, Sir William said angrily, "Tell them again, for the last time, by God, Her Majesty's Government demands immediate reparations of one hundred thousand pounds sterling in gold for allowing this unprovoked attack and murder of an Englishman--killing Englishmen is kinjiru by God! And also we demand possession of the Satsuma murderers within three days or we-will-take-definitive-action!"

  He was across the bay in the small, stuffy audience room of the British Legation in

  Yokohama, flanked by the Prussian, French and Russian Ministers, both Admirals,

  British and French, the General, all of them equally exasperated.

  In line opposite, seated ceremoniously on chairs, were two local representatives of the

  Bakufu, the chief samurai of the Settlement

  Guard, and the Governor of Kanagawa in whose jurisdiction Yokohama lay. They wore wide pantaloons and kimonos, and over them the broad-shouldered, winglike mantle that was belted, and two swords. Clearly all were uncomfortable and inwardly furious. At dawn, armed soldiers had hammered on the door of the Customs Houses, in both Yokohama and Kanagawa, with rifle butts and unprecedented anger, summoning the highest officials and Governor to an immediate conference at noon, the haste also unprecedented.

  Between the two sides the interpreters sat on cushions. The Japanese knelt, and the other, a

  Swiss, Johann Favrod, sat cross-legged, their common language Dutch.

  The meeting had already been in progress for two hours--English translated into Dutch into Japanese, into Dutch into English and back again. All Sir William's questions were misunderstood, or parried or needed repeating several times, delays were "requested" in a dozen different ways to "consult higher authorities to institute examinations and investigations" and "Oh yes, in Japan examinations are quite different from investigations. His

  Excellency, the Governor of Kanagawa, explains in detail that..." and "Oh His

  Excellency, the Governor of Kanagawa, wishes to explain in detail that he has no jurisdiction over Satsuma which is a separate kingdom..." and "Oh but His Excellency, the

  Governor of Kanagawa, understands the accused drew pistols threateningly and are accused and guilty of not obeying Japanese ancient customs..." and "How many fore
igners did you say were in the foreign party who should have knelt and

  ... but our customs..."

  Tedious, time-consuming, and complex lectures in

  Japanese by the Governor, put laboriously into far from fluent Dutch and retranslated into English.

  "Make it blunt, Johann, exactly as

  I said it."

  "I have, every time, Sir William, but I'm sure this cretin isn't interpreting accurately, either what you say or what the Jappers say."